I’m terrified and disappointed and really upset all at once. I’m terrified because my plans aren’t working, Deon’s leaving so soon and Joan and ankita will be going at the same time, everyone’s going on their trips and I’m stuck here because nobody wants my company to trip with. I feel hurt because I wanted to travel so much with someone I love, and now everyone’s travelling without me and I’m left all alone. The only person I feel truly wants to be with me is going and I know to cope with it I need something to occupy myself with, I need a job or jobs I need to be busy to distract myself and help time fly but I can’t because now I’m getting trouble securing a job. I should have taken it when I had the chance, I shouldn’t have taken it for granted. I’m so disappointed my happy plans didn’t work, terrified the plan is crashing leading to a lot of loneliness and distress alone, and really sad I don’t feel wanted by many. I feel so small and lost and afraid.
Whenever I attend the wedding, the first thing I look at isn’t the bride. It’s the groom. I like seeing the way he looks at her, like she’s the only woman in the world and all he could ever ask for was walking down the aisle in a white dress, ready to say yes to a life with him, and to love him for the rest of his life.
Before the wedding: “They wanted to pray together, but not see each other, before the ceremony.”
speak up, stand out.: Lilo, why are you all wet?
This is actually heartbreaking when you remember Lilo tells Stitch her parents went for a drive and crashed because of bad weather.
(Source: w-bunny)
for once, im not going to run and chase you so we can sort things out before you leave. which leads us to not solving anything at all. because you left.
RDJ:”Don’t pull your head away when I’m kissing it!”
Susan: ‘Here you go! here you go! aww’ (x)
“Who was your first kiss?”
“Oh ya know, just John Stamos.”
(Source: eckstasy)
lets try this shall we? you said late afternoon, or to be safe, evening.
then at one, you said you’ll come soon after a short nap. I predict youll come at eight.
Im just angry. Youre gonna be angry. Im sick of your words. They are worth less than half than you make them sound. I hate myself for saying these to you, but I hate your actions more. I dont deserve this!
None of this is my fault. I hate you for making me suffer. I hate you for being so okay so easily, I mustn’t mean much to you don’t I? It’s fine, I don’t care anymore. See? I learn quick. I do not care about you anymore. Leave of you want to! I’m completely indifferent.
Im in Emotional turmoil. You’re happy enjoying Hakuna matata. I feel so much hatred toward you and you making me feel this, but I’m happy you’re happy even though It kills me. I’m lost in a whirlpool of hurt but still the only thing I’m sure of is how much I’m in love with you. But God, it’s so painful I don’t want to be anymore. I keep thinking I can be okay being the one that cares more, but I don’t think I can. This sounds so shallow, so ridiculous but I feel so broken I can’t make it not sound lame. Joseph where are you? I need to cry. I’m so hurt. I need you please please why are you gone? Why is meeting cancelled tomorrow? I needed it, I needed it. I’m going to die waiting.
